WTF why does it always have to be this way, will I ever learn ANYTHING?! of course I could talk and figure out where I'm standing and exactly what the fucking fuck is happening... but of course, I LOVE to suffer... LOVE ITTT, I feel so fucked up! so so much... I can't think clear and I can't even talk... I just cry, at this point I don't think I'm imagining things anymore... I feel so frustrated and so mad and sad and everything.... for the first time ever I don't want to wait and see what happens, but I don't know how to proceed...fuck my fucking life... fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckFUCKIT